Old Dilemma

My mom and I are not in good terms for the past few days. I really hate the fact that we are fighting over money. I mentioned that I received my first salary last Friday and I was happy that I will be able to contribute something at home. I gave my mother my share and I was surprised by her reaction.

We never talked about the amount of cash I will contribute at home, but she expressed how disappointed she was when I gave her the money. Her exact words were, “Kulang pa ito, ha!” (”This is not enough!”) It felt like a sharp echo in my ears, and I was hurt. I gave her 1/4 of my salary, which is already a big fraction because 2/4 is budgeted for my 2 weeks pocket money to and from work, and the remaining 1/4 is my extra money.

I was am really hurt and disappointed. Until now, she isn’t speaking to me properly. She acts like I do not exist. When I talk to her, she wouldn’t answer, or would act irritated. I tried to talk to my father about it and he just said that I should ask God for guidance and talk to my mother. God knows I’ve tried to talk to her, but she treats me like a leper. I even wish I never started working again. This isn’t a new scenario. This has happened before. My salary before was twice as much as I earn now, and I gave her 3x as much money compared to now, but even then, she would tell me it’s not enough.

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