Making Love With Superman
Jul 4, 2007 Uncategorized
I am inside our house, I know it. Every piece of furniture is where it is supposed to be, but why does it seem a little cooler than what it should be? I walk down the stairs to find an intimate party with my family and some friends. The lighting looks like it’s from an old chandelier, yellowish and sad.
At the foot of the stairs, I saw my mom and I asked her where Ryan is. My mom pointed towards the sofa, and there he was, sleeping. I walked towards him and told him to sleep in one of the rooms upstairs.
Closely looking at him, he seems a lot taller, his hair is curly and his built is more solid. Just who is this guy? I kept on looking at him while we ascend upstairs. I peeped inside our room and found my sister already sleeping soundly. I told the guy to enter my parents’ bedroom and sleep there instead.
As he was about to sleep, and I, about to leave… he took my arm and pinned me down on the bed. My initial reaction was to struggle, jump and run for dear life.
Me-lan-cho-ly
Jan 31, 2007 Buzz, Daily Blurbs
I’ve been feeling melancholic since I woke up this morning. It was probably because of the big fight I had with my mom the previous night. We exchanged hurtful words at each other. I didn’t mean to say anything back at her, but I have kept mum for a long time and I just blew up yesterday night. The bottom line is, all I want for her to do is appreciate the things I do, even if it’s just the littlest thing. I don’t ask for much. A little thank you would do.
To add to the depressing mood, I had a bad dream this morning, so I just drank some capresso. In my dream, Ryan broke up with me and I couldn’t believe that it happened. I kept on looking out my bedroom window, waiting for him to come back, but he didn’t. Inside my dream, I realized I was dreaming, and I wanted so much to wake up. I kept on crying in my dream because I can’t wake up. When I finally did, I found myself really crying and I coldn’t breathe properly. I sat straight up to catch my breath. I sent a text message to Ryan and told him about my dream. He said that, “It’s just a dream. It’s not real.” …well, I hope so.
Upto now, I still feel so low. My eyes are still sore from all the crying. I suffered a bad headache since last night, pretended it didn’t hurt when I got to school, and still pretended I am alright when I spoke to Ryan on the phone this afternoon. I don’t want him to know that I still feel bad. I know it’s hard to be in his situation. He’s there and I’m here, and he can’t do anything to physically comfort me and make me feel better. The truth is, I wished he’s here with me right now to just embrace me and make me feel that everything is going to be alright.
I feel so cold and alone. Literally.
Tags: Argh, Daily Blurbs, Dreams
It’s 2007.
Jan 1, 2007 Daily Blurbs
Another year. What’s new? I tried to recall what happened last year, all I can remember is that I spent it with my family.
New Year’s Eve was spent at my aunt’s house, a block from ours. We had a family dinner first in our home. My sister’s boyfriend was with us. My dad asked why Ryan didn’t come, I just said that he’s with his family. There were 8 wine glasses that my mom prepared, and 1 of them was left in the cupboard because it was supposed to be for Ryan.. 
Anyway, in my aunt’s house, there were lots of food and drinks. I didn’t eat anything there, I just had glasses of wine. Yes, glasses. I didn’t get drunk, though. As usual, there were fireworks all over our subdivision. My cousin, Tom, was the one who lighted a dozen fountain firecracker. We were all outside and we watched the beautiful fireworks display from our rich neighbors. 
We played games, like “newspaper dance”, “stop dance”, “bring me” and “longest line”. My aunt threw 5-peso coins in the air for us to take. All of us were happily scuttling for the coins. I only got a hundred-ten. Not bad.:thumbsup:
The party ended at 2am. We all went home to rest, but I didn’t. I was busy making other plans, plans that didn’t happen. Well, a few days before Sunday, Dyan asked me if I wanted to go with her and Glenn to Laguna. I said “No.” because Ryan said, “You’re not spending New Year’s eve with me and you’re spending it with someone else?” So yes, I declined, knowing that Ryan would go to work at 3:30am today, Jan 1. BUT 2 hours before his shift, he said that he won’t go to work anymore. I thought, What if Glenn picks him up from where he is and drops him off here? So we made plans. Then, I called him on his cellphone and everything just became complicated. The ending? The plan didn’t push through and I slept when the sun was already peeping from the horizon.
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