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Nostalgia

Mar 31, 2006 Daily Blurbs

It rained yesterday. A wave of nostalgia came over me. Familiar feelings, familiar smell, familiar thoughts. It was a good feeling. It has been a long time since I last felt those things. The feeling of familiarity and excitement. How do I describe it?

Well, a good two years back, I met this guy, when the weather was always raining. He was of good breeding. He was someone that seemed to have come from a good dream. Hahaha! How fairytale-ish! I know I don’t miss him, but I miss the feeling of being in that situation. That there was someone who misses me everyday, calls me long distance, sends me MMS pictures so that I don’t feel lonely, makes me smile when I am down, meets me up for coffee and a good conversation… Who can blame me for wanting that again? Everyone needs someone. Sadly, these love affairs only come in a selected time. It’s like inside a time continuum and love only comes at a certain point in the x and y planes. And if you are not on the right plane, you miss it.

A good friend once told me that she’s noticed a change in me. The confidence that used to exude from me is not so obvious anymore. I guess, after all those breakups and being misled too many times by the people I trust, made me who I am. Now, it is a great deal for me when I meet up with a guy. It’s like, I have to be really sure if I wanted him to be a part of my life. I don’t want just anyone in. I am very cynical and careful when it comes to adding certain people in my plane.

On a lighter note, I think I am having more fun now. I get to go out with my friends out of town and I get to be more laid back. I’ve noticed the change in me. I am more relaxed and outgoing. I used to have my own world, where nobody can enter. It was a fear for me that when someone gets through, there is a chance for my world to be ruined. But I’ve gotten stronger and wiser. I guess you get that when you’ve been through an emotional turmoil. I am not saying that I have the worst problems; I know that some people have much more worse things to deal with, but this is my life, and I have no control with theirs, only in mine that I do.

Anyway, I made 3 layouts for my blog, but when I tried them all, the sidebar was being stubborn. It’s a good thing that Sarah was there last night and she helped me figure it out. She even uploaded the theme on her site to check if it’s working fine. Turned out, one of my posts have an unclosed tag, “< div align = “left’ >”. Again, a BIG thank you, Sarah!

Lastly, I have a new blog tenant. She is Lucy, a mom of three kids. She is a southerner. Please visit her blog. It is interesting.

Oh yeah, I have new pictures.

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