Another one of those days
Jul 22, 2005 Uncategorized
Everyone around me is happy. Well, that’s what I see. Whether they’re faking or whatever, that’s not important. Read my last entry? Who am l kidding? Of course he won’t give me the time of day. Yes, I am one big pessimist.
Today, my best bud just told me he’s going to get married. I am so happy for him, but at the same time, it made me a bit sad. Why? It made me realize that he’s one of those happy people, an addition to those that are around me. He has come a long way. He used to cry a lot. Every single night we’d talk and he’d drink and he’d cry. But now, he’s a very lucky and a very happy man. For that, I am happy he’s passed through all those lonely nights… nights that I still experience.
My mom said that I should invite happiness in my life. Smile, even if there’s nothing to be happy about, and that maybe the good vibes would come crawling inside my lonely heart. Sure. Yes, I do follow her advice. Everyday I would put on the best smile and look happy in front of everyone I know. Yes, most of the time it seems like it felt real. At the end of the day, that’s just not the case. Again, who am I kidding?!
One day, I know, he’ll come. That’s what they all say, anyway. Well, I just hope that when he does, I haven’t given up yet…
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July 23rd, 2005 at 2:31am
I know how you feel. Two of my bestfriends are getting married this year. I guess they belong with the happy people too.
Am waiting too…
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July 23rd, 2005 at 10:59pm
wassup Dre? im mad. i miss you.
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