I Dunno what…
Sep 24, 2005 Daily Blurbs, Work
Brace yourself. I am blogging about nothing. Well, let’s say I am typing whatever comes to mind. Like right now, I am thinking about James. Yes, James Blunt and his song You’re Beautiful. It has been playing over and over in my head and I can’t seem to get rid of it. Whenever I hear that song, it acts like a sting. It just won’t go away. Yesterday, when I sang the chorus out loud, my teammate sitting beside me started to sing it also, and he kept on saying that the song is stuck on his brain. hahaha! When I was transferred to my second team in Matrix, I would always sing aloud, my teammates and I were not yet that close at that time. Then suddenly, I would hear them softly singing the song I was also singing, so I’d spam the lyrics to the whole team. I remember the first song I used to sing all time, it was Overjoyed. Cheesy. I guess that was because when my friends Kat, Karl, Kate and I went out, that was the song that the guy sang at Ipanema. KKK! I am the only D! Whatever \//!
Anyway, I just received the new schedule for my work next week. It’s freaking bad! I mean, I’m gonna have a split off, then my sched starts at 4am! It just doesn’t get better than that! Crap! Our schedule analyst sucks. Does she really know how to analyze schedules?
Yesterday, Kate, Derick and I went apartment hunting. The first one located at Poblacion is not appealing to me. I mean it looks unsecured and I don’t feel home in it. We decided to go to the boarding house that we originally planned to go to, it is in San Antonio Village. While walking towards their street, we saw an apartment type building with a big red gate. We saw a sign on the gate that says we could rent a room, so we went in and looked at the room. Well, it was okay, and Kate seemed to like the place. But I don’t. I don’t like the fact that there is a screen on the wall that anyone that walks by would look in. What I want in a place is privacy, accessibility and the overall look of the place. I don’t like a cramped room. It’s not that I am claustrophobic or anything, it’s just that I like space. It’s going to be Kate and I in the room, I mean, my shoes alone… hehehe ;Þ So anyway, the final place we went to is the boarding house. I like the fact that it’s gate is tall and clean. We went in and it looks to me like the place was really made for boarding. I liked it the best. Anyhoo… Kate called last night saying that she’s not sure about boarding anymore. Crap! She says she’ going to call me again today to confirm. I don’t know what’s her reason, but she says she cannot disclose it over the phone. Could it be her boyfriend stopping her? Or could it be her parents? But… her parents let her stay in an apartment for 2 years in UPLB before. Sigh… I got home by 5pm yesterday, so I looked stoned already when I got home. I brushed my teeth, hit the sack, and snoozed until 1am! I was late for work today. Crap!
Then I am thinking maybe I should just stay with my grandma’s house. It’s been on my mind lately, and it’s for free. But, the thing is, their house is along the road where a lot of noise come from. Like cars passing by, dogs barking, people who do not sleep… so, those are my main concern. I can’t sleep well if there are a lot of noise, unless, I am so stoned I wouldn’t hear a thing.
Someone sent me an e-load yesterday worth P460. I don’t know from who, but it will expire on the 4th of October, so I have been passing loads to some of my friends, including Nestee boo boo ;Þ I mean, I don’t wanna waste the gift from “I-dunno-who”. I have been sending SMS like crazy to people that I haven’t gotten in touch with for a very long time. They were, of course, surprised. I mean, I am not an SMS addict, so they were like “Dre? Is that you?!’ Hahaha! So, if you are my friend and I have your number, don’t be surprised if you receive an SMS or pasaload from me!
Ciao!
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The Long Weekend
Sep 20, 2005 Daily Blurbs
It all started with a meal at Wendy’s. Nestee and I were at SM North before 
we got ourselves “Sambos” from Brownies for dessert. We still have hours to kill coz we’re going to meet the rest of the gang at
We arrived at Nestee’s residence around
“The setting was the same as everything that I last saw before I’ve fallen asleep. We were at Nestee’s home. A woman with long wavy hair, wearing red, was holding my right wrist and was trying to take me away. She would not let go. I was trying to wake everyone up, as I struggle to try to open my lips to call everyone’s name, but no words would come out. I tried to get away, but I could not move. She keeps on pulling my hand to take me away…”
Nestee said that I was constantly moving and was making whimpering sounds so he decided to try and wake me up. So I woke up. The first thing I told him was to sing just so I’d forget what I’ve just seen. So he did. If he hadn’t woken me up, I would’ve been dead by now. Most people don’t know this about me, but I sense spirits when they’re around. I don’t see them when I am awake, I feel them. But when I am asleep, that’s where I see them. I was so freaked out that I started to cry. He asked what happened, so I told him. I tried to sleep on it, but it was so hard. Eventually, I was able to catch some snooze, but I was feeling paranoia.
When we got up, Goi, Nestee and I decided to go the marketplace and buy the food we’re going to cook and bring to the river. Yammie, our cook, suggested torta and I cooked tofu. It was made out of banana’s heart, flour, eggs, ground pork and spices. I never knew Yammie was good cook! We went to the river and decided we’d eat lunch there. The river was flooded due to the rain, so we weren’t able to go to Nestee’s piece of land. Nestee and his uncle were the only once who got across the river to get some coconut fruit from their tree. They were gone for about an hour. The rest of us enjoyed the river. The current was quite okay and the water was cold. By
Nestee went to his church by
The water was so cold. It’s like a million knives piercing through your skin. Although the water was so cold, we all enjoyed dipping on it. The stone under the falls were quite slippery, so I slipped and slid a little while walking towards the falls. There were big stones that you could sit on near the falls, so Nestee and I sat there while waiting for Goi, Yammie and Alex to get there. The waves coming from the falls were quite strong. Nestee asked me to try to get under the falling water, so he helped me get there. The water felt good on my back, it’s like a thousand hands massaging it. After just a few minutes underneath the falls, I had to surrender because of the coldness. My eyes started to blur. I sat on the big stone for a few more minutes. Nestee decided that we should head back home, but we still stayed on the stones by the side of the falls. We took some more pictures, and by
We got home by a
I was a bit worried that I won’t be able to get home in time. The service to get into our subdivision is only until
I got to my bed that I missed so much and tried to rest. When I close my eyes, my mind would still wander around and I couldn’t get the sleep that I badly needed. All the bones in my body hurt. I guess it has been a really long time since I walked that far. I got off bed, opened the computer and started to type this long entry. Just for kicks. Ha!
By the stroke of
Pictures to be uploaded later!
Happy 23rd birthday, Nestee!
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I’ve got one finger sticking out
Sep 12, 2005 Daily Blurbs
It’s just one of those days when I want to bang my head on the wall until it bleeds and I lose consciousness. I don’t know why this has to come out of me at least twice a month, when I just feel so down low. I guess it is because I have been repressing the depression, and I never really overcame it. At that time when I was feeling so depressed, there was no one there for me, and I never spoke to anyone. My bed was my best friend. My cell phone has a lot of credits but I never use it because I don’t communicate with anyone. I slowly lost a lot of friends that I thought were good enough, but I am content with whoever’s left because they proved that they are worth keeping. I don’t need friends for fun; I need real friends who’d be there even at my worst. Anyway, I still want to bang my head on the wall, I think it’s going to keep me sane and awake. I am wondering why it’s taking a long time for my head to bleed. It doesn’t even hurt. Until now, I don’t understand why it takes a while for me to actually open up to someone and tell them how shitty I feel. I usually am a picture of a happy person to my friends. Well, usually I really am. Most times, I am faking it and no one even notices. Most days I just refuse to think and feel and I wished that I don’t feeling anything at all, pain or happiness. I wanted to be numb. I feel like it will save me from damnation, but that’s plain dim-witted. I know that it’s not fair to say that I am doing this to myself and blaming life about it…I know that whatever is happening in my life is my sole responsibility, and I am to blame for any mishap because it is my decision in the first place. So here I am, still feeling crappy about life and its adornments, still wishing that my head would bleed soon…I’ve got one finger sticking out, and it’s pointed to me!
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