Filipina Web Designer in her 20s. | What I Say

My head is killing me, and it’s been keeping me in bed. Damn migraine! I am going to make this entry quick. I don’t want all of you to think I am dead, or something. I am just feeling sick, that’s all.

Anyway, I’ve been having this dream about a guy. It’s been three days with the same scenario. Him saving me. Him embracing me. Him just being there. I don’t know who he is. I can’t see his face, but I feel it in my dream that it’s just one guy who have been starring in it. Could it mean that he, whoever he is, is coming for me? Well…whoever he is, I thank him for not giving me nightmares, and making me sleep sweetly…

We were talking yesterday, and he was on cam, and he was in cali, his girl’s room. The girl was there, and he was talking to me. He said he missed me. I just said, “Oh..thanks..” How lame?! Haha! He said that his girl is jealous of me. I said, “As if I am a threat!” Then his girl looked over his shoulder and he typed, “Ganon?” I am only a threat if I wanted to, but I don’t. I asked him why she’s jealous of me, he said he doesn’t know. I don’t know what he told her, I didn’t want to ask. So his girl, while reading what I was typing, kissed him, while looking on cam. I said, “ohh..how sweet!” I wanted to puke, so I minimized the cam and pretended I was watching. He asked me if I was still watching, I said, yes. Then he said “look!” He showed me his hat, then his girl came over again, and looked at the cam. Then he asked her to leave, and buy food. When she left, he said, “Why is it like this, dredre?” So I asked, “Like what?” He said, “I don’t know…I just like her company, but I don’t feel that something…that something…u know?” I didn’t know what to say, so I just typed, “ohh..” When his girl got back, I said my goodbyes because I was sleepy already. He said, “It’s 4am na pala, dredre. Go on and get some rest. Sweet Dreams!” Then I told them to both take care. His girl typed, “sWeEt dReAmS!!” Looked like “wet” dreams to me! *lol

This is my song for the moment:
Why - Avril Lavigne

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn’t you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don’t care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It’s not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we’re not saying
Let’s play, a different game than what we’re playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I’m gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you’re far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you’re far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It’s not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

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