Filipina Web Designer in her 20s. | What I Say

I will be very busy starting tomorrow, because I will be revamping Arnee’s official website. For now, only her forum is working. Someone else is in charge for the skinning of that forum. For everyone who doesn’t know who Arnee is, well, she’s a local artist here in the Philippines who made a remake of the songs “Cold Summer Nights” originally by Francis M., and “True” originally by Spandau Ballet. She’s been gaining a lot of followers, and has been making a name for herself as the RnB Siren. Anyway, I am not exactly a fan. I am just making her a website. With pay. ^_+

I made a really cute layout for Wicked Designs. Finally, I have added one after some time of not updating the site. It’s really cute, and you should check it out. Just go to the layout’s section of Wicked Designs, and it’s the one labeled *New. I also edited some parts of My domain, because, well, it needs to be edited! Hehe…

I am boring you right now with this entry so I am gonna stop typing now. Well, maybe after I type this last sentence! With this smiley ^_+

I just found out that my best friend now has a boyfriend. That’s why she hasn’t been calling for weeks! I text her every now and then, but she hasn’t said a word about that guy she’s with now. She called about 10pm last night just to squeal in my ears, “I have a boyfriend!” I wasn’t really thrilled with the news. Yes, I am happy for her, but now I just want to be selfish. I am the only one without a love life! Not only among my close friends, but with my family, too. I just feel left out. My best friend even asked me to come with them to Enchanted Kingdom. Heck! I will be the only one without a date! I hate this feeling! Grr!

What does dre think about “torpe” guys? - Laarni
Guys who are torpe [too shy to approach a girl], for me are annoying. A guy like that drives me crazy, specially if I like the guy, too. It’s like saying something, then leaves you hanging. Sometimes, I wanna do the “courting, but in our culture, it’s just wrong…well, not really. It’s just not acceptable for most people. Living in a conservative country, there are lots of do’s and don’ts…It’s ok to give hints, though. But if after all the hints that you give to that “torpe” guy…grr…I lose interest! Unless, he changes… ^_+

WhAt Is LoVe?
If you are afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices, either tell about that person what you feel and let love take place forever…or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions. Sometimes I’ve asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want…then I realized it was you, too bad because it’s you I can’t have. Love can never be so beautiful without friendship…one leads to another and the process is irreversible…the best of lover is the best of friends.

Love doesn’t have to have a happy ending because love doesn’t have to end at all… A man realized he wanted his love back not wanting to be hurt again, and the man cried out to God if it was not meant to be why did I lose her? God replied, you didn’t lose her…you let her go. When you love someone don’t expect that person to love you back the same amount, one of you will be ahead of the other one behind it’s either you catch up or the other waits…what if someone tells you this, don’t believe in courtship it’s just a waste of time…if I love a person I’ll tell her right away, but for you I’ll make an exception, just love me now and I’ll court you forever. Never be afraid to fall in love…it may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains but if you don’t follow your heart in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance…

I’m sorry if you can’t love me the way you loved her, so I’ll let you go to find her and hope someday you’ll see that the one true love you’re looking for was the one who set you free. Isn’t it funny we are trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love, we hardly notice the one we are really looking for was just there, you don’t notice them until they are in the arms of someone else… Love is like standing in a wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave…and you can never go without leaving your prints behind… think of this… have you really cared for someone more that you expect? Have you ever tried to love her in spite of all the pain, will you keep on loving her as she whispers someone else’s name? True love hears what is not spoken and understands what is not experienced for love doesn’t work in the mouth nor the mind …but in the HEART. When you love you must not expect anything in return, for if you do you’re not loving but investing. If you love you must you must be prepared to accept the pain for if you expect happiness you’re not loving but using.

I love you because you’re my friend, I care for you…and because I care I love you. I don’t love you because you are my friend; I love you because I do. It’s better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride… I can’t choose who I’m going to love, but I also can’t just love who chooses to love me…you can’t blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can’t blame you for not learning to love me. How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine…why do I miss someone I was never with and I asked why I love someone who’s love was never mine.

It’s hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds…but when these two worlds collide and become one that’s what you call “LOVE”… Don’t love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season…love them like a river, cause a river flows forever… The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall. Love may leave your heart like a shattered glass but keep in mind that there’s someone who’ll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you can be whole again.

**Sigh** [got this from an email...]

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Q & A
Q: i’m cez from your forum and i just want to ask how you get the online journal thing???
A: for beginners, try Xanga, Tabulas, Blogger or Diary Land. ^_+