Oh My Mama
Sep 27, 2003 Daily Blurbs
someone told me that most people at nastyforums does not like me and gp, or maybe the way we react on certain topics. is it too bad that we say what we want? i mean, is it too bad to be too honest? i am the type of person who says what she wants, same goes for gp. i know that most people there don’t like me, or us, but this is the first time someone really told me about it. i can’t pinpoint who anyway, i guess, some people just couldn’t take my honesty. the purpose of posting on a forum is for people to react on the topic that you have started. i’d feel stupid if i don’t post what i really think about the situation. i don’t want to be lying. besides, i only react on topics that i have knowledge of, or have experience on.
SEPTEMBER 28, 2003
i woke up with a bad headache. went dowstairs to fix breakfast for my family. my mom and i had an argument after that because i didn’t wash their clothes! it has been a rule that everyone in our family must wash their own clothes, except for my little brother and my dad. i did wash mine yesterday, and my mom had a fit coz i didn’t wash hers. i was so pissed off coz she told me that what i did wasn’t enough. well, guess what? for her, everything i do is never enough. i feel like i am a piece of shit and a big mistake in her eyes. sigh! i then emailed gp, my bestfriend, what happened… he then replied with something short, but very sweet: dre, you matter to me…
anyway, i’m so glad i have read sinta’s blog last night. it made me feel better to know that to someone, i am something. i know that…
i know that my mom doesn’t really mean what she said, but hearing it made me feel really bad. i am not going to let her affect me. i am just going to cry and wash my face. breathe and think of all the people who cares about me. maybe my mom is just tired. maybe i’m just being hard on myself. maybe i should take everything lying down, so that whatever hits me, won’t make me fall down.
thanks so much gp, you really are a pal! and sinta, you never fail to touch my heart…
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Don’t Like US?
Sep 27, 2003 Daily Blurbs
someone told me that most people at nastyforums does not like me and gp, or maybe the way we react on certain topics. is it too bad that we say what we want? i mean, is it too bad to be too honest? i am the type of person who says what she wants, same goes for gp. i know that most people there don’t like me, or us, but this is the first time someone really told me about it. i can’t pinpoint who anyway, i guess, some people just couldn’t take my honesty. the purpose of posting on a forum is for people to react on the topic that you have started. i’d feel stupid if i don’t post what i really think about the situation. i don’t want to be lying. besides, i only react on topics that i have knowledge of, or have experience on.
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Tired Of Being Alone
Sep 26, 2003 Daily Blurbs
i just have this feeling that i won’t be in a relationship anytime soon, or ever. it just seems that noboby really has an interest in me. it’s always based on the physical aspect, and that i lack…even if my friends tell me i am pretty, i just don’t feel as confident as i used to. most of the guys i meet do not ask for a 2nd date or whatever shit. i am not perfect, but i know there are qualities in me that are likeable. why am i even living in this society, where beauty is such a big factor? i don’t need a hunk for a boyfriend, i just need someone who’ll be able to understand me, take care of me… someone that i can love and be happy with… i have been single and alone for more than a year now, believe me when i say it is hard. why? i have always had someone, and i guess, i am just not used to being in this situation. i don’t even like it. not a bit. i may sound pathetic, but anyone in my situation would understand. i am not happy with my life. i don’t even have anything. yes, i do have friends, but they too have their own dillema, with their special someones. i miss those. the lover’s quarrels, and the reconciliations after those. i miss the late night phonecalls talking about nothing. the short and sweet text messages on my cellphone. the cute and cuddly teddybears that i get, even if i don’t like getting one… i am not the type of person who calls up a friend and whine about my life. (i do it here!) i am the type who friends call and listen to them whine… i always have to be strong for them…and when i cry, they just don’t seem to comfort me. i guess because it takes a lot of effort to do so. am i that deep?
i’m tired of being alone,
so hurry up and get here…
~ love song for no one - john mayer
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