Matrix

i watched “the matrix” alone. the moviehouse was almost empty, and it’s as if i am literally alone in there. the sounds were toxifying my silence…but it was so relaxing. i wish i could’ve stayed longer, or maybe, stay there forever. the sounds were reverberating inside of me, and it was like sweet surrender. if only i could change my life into something so perfect…flawless…emotionless…nothin’ to think about worry about…i don’t want to feel, to think, to breathe, to love… i just want to live…that’s all…Matrix

Stupidity Isn’t Too Painful

he’s back! he came home a while ago, so i’m happy! i’ll be able to talk to him again. well, we did talk on the phone for like 11 minutes. so it’ll be like P300 worth of airtime! hehehe… but it was worth it. at least i had the chance to talk to him. he enjoyed his stay there and well i’m glad he did. anyways, gp told me “I SUCK!” well, i agree with him… i really do! quoting gp: “it’s too bad stupidity isn’t too painful” well yeah, i totally agree, coz if it wasn’t, then i’d be too crazy right now! i’m just a little unwell…hehehehe! i’ll have a new sim card, maybe tomorrow with P4000 worth of calls or text! hehehehe! i have an oral exam tomorrow, actually it’s about facial expressions and i have to do it infront of the whole class. i’m the only girl in that class, and imagine what i’d look like doing the “satisfaction” expression on my face!!! it’ll be too embarrassing! i hope it won’t be my turn tomorrow!!

Missing

I miss someone terribly! as in! it’s been 4 days without talk… and 2 more days to go… I am supposed to be at a party right now, but I am too sad to go… I wanted to talk to this person, but I can’t bring myself to do it… I am too chicken!! I wanna see him like right now! Good thing GP is talkin’ to me right now… telling me this silly story… amusing me… but I still miss him a lot!!!! I still wanna talk to him…see him…argh! when will that be? I shall wait for Kentucky Derby Party Invitations, and have more fun.